Last Day

Today is my last day at work! hindi pa ko nag tuturn-over. balik pa ko August 8. still, no trace of sadness, i guess excited talaga ako. ay meron pala, yung binigay ko na I.D. ko, waaaaah i dont wanna let go of it, ang bata pa kase ng itsura ko dun, totoy na totoy, yun lang ang kaisa-isang evidence na photogenic ako, hahahahaha!!!! so, pinascan ko at i had it printed sa photopaper.

ang dami ko pang maiiwan, yung home pc ko, kase paayos ko pa sa isd namen (libre kase hehehehe). toothbrush and toothpaste, infrared port ko, speaker, photo albums sa pc, mp3's, wmv's, di ko pa natatransfer sa home pc ko kase nga sira. grrrrrrrr. .. so balik pa din ako talaga to do all these.

to everyone sa phimco, THANK YOU SO MUCH! a big part of who i've become (professionally), is Phimco. maraming salamat sa mga paracetamol, antibiotic, omega pain killer, tissue, internet access, libreng check-up, payong, tshirts, caps, muscle relaxants, libreng luches, meriendas, at breakfasts, at higit sa lahat, sa libreng paprint ng colored pictures!!!!!!

Last 3 days

this is probably the last time i'm gonna post from my office. last 3 days ko na lang dito. haaaay. i gave my notice last week and hindi pa rin nag sisink in na i'll be gone in a few days. i really cannot identify my feelings right now. relieved? maybe ehehehehe... pero sad? i dunno pero di talaga. considering na ive spent 4 years here, no trace of sadness, or siguro di pa talaga nagsisink in yung thought na when i wake up monday morning, wala na kong trabaho, hehehehe.

ONE LAST LOOK AT MY WORK STATION.....clutter, clutter, clutter,


moving on..... this is one of my top 3 most favorite things to do. new start, new faces, new challenges.

FAITH. this is all i have now. "And you know that in all things, God works for the good of those who love him and who have been called according to his purpose" Romans 8:28. This verse has kept me holding on. i'm not being fatalistic naman, pero choosing between worrying about what the future holds and believing that whatever happens, God will always be at the other end, i choose the latter. sometimes kase, it's easier for us to worry about the things we have no control of. lately, i have learned to just give my worries to God and I know that he'll always be in control. that's how you get peace of mind i guess.

sometimes, things don't turn out as planned. minsan iba yung dumarating dun sa gusto nateng mangyari. what do we do about it? sometimes kase, we are so caught up with the things we want for ourselves that we don't see the bigger picture, the picture that God has planned for our lives. sometimes, we miss out on the greater opportunities because we fixate over our selfish plans. don't get me wrong, pero kase di ba we have the tendency to be stubborn, nasa harap na natin yung opportunity, pero di naten nakikita kase, we still insist dun sa gusto naten. we fail to realize that God knows what's best for us. always.

my present state of mind

here's the lyrics to gavin deGraw's I don't Want to be


I don't need to be anything other
Than a prison guard's son
I don't need to be anything other
Than a specialist's son
I don't have to be anyone other
Than the birth of two souls in one
Part of where I'm going, is knowing where I'm coming from
I don't want to be
Anything other than what I've been trying to be lately
All I have to do
Is think of me and I have peace of mind
I'm tired of looking 'round rooms
Wondering what I've got to do
Or who I'm supposed to be
I don't want to be anything other than me
I'm surrounded by liars everywhere I turn
I'm surrounded by imposters everywhere I turn
I'm surrounded by identity crisis everywhere I turn
Am I the only one who noticed?
I can't be the only one who's learned
I don't want to be
Anything other than what I've been trying to be lately
All I have to do
Is think of me and I have peace of mind
I'm tired of looking 'round rooms
Wondering what I've got to do
Or who I'm supposed to be
I don't want to be anything other than me
Can I have everyone's attention please?
If you're not like this and that, you're gonna have to leave
I came from the mountain
The crust of creation
My whole situation-made from clay to stone
And now I'm telling everybody
I don't want to be
Anything other than what I've been trying to be lately
All I have to do
Is think of me and I have peace of mind
I'm tired of looking 'round rooms
Wondering what I've got to do
Or who I'm supposed to be
I don't want to be anything other than me
I don't want to be

CLOSER

just watched the movie on video last night. WOW! one of smartest and most riveting movies i've ever seen. so well-acted.

natalie portman's the best! she deserved the oscar this year (i can't for the life of me, imagine how cate blanchett won over her, maybe for sentimental reasons. fine she's a great actress, but no way she could've beaten natalie portman in this movie). she was such a revelation in this movie. Alice, her character, has the innocence and sweetness of a young girl, and the passion of a woman in-love, then scorned, then used, then in-love again, then finally, freed.

and Clive Owen, it's my first time to see him in a movie(as far as i can recall, though), and wow, this man can act. galeng nya, grabe. he's doctor larry. funny yung chat nila ni jude law sa net. and the time when he found out that he's been had. ang galeng how he showed both his gentleman-ly side and his almost-animalistic-lust, plus the torment of being had for the 2nd time around by the same man. galing nung pag-transition nung character nya, he was able to show that his bad side has always been lurking around, but what you see is his good side. but in the end, his bad side finally took control over him.

Julia's okay naman, kaya lang mejo distracting yung superstar image nya. i wish na someone with a less stellar status could have been asked to play her character, Anna. (it's the same feeling i felt when i watched War of the Worlds, yung tipong sana hindi si Tom Cruise. dapat parang Matthew broderick sa Godzilla lang, big movie, with not-so-big a star. Big Movie + a Bigger Star = distracting, in my opinion lang). great confrontation scene though, between larry and anna, when she told him that he's been seeing Dan for a year already and they just had something special on their couch. one of Julia's best. kinda reminds you of her erin brockovich. pero buti nga hindi masyado madame yung scenes nya kahit sya yung biggest star sa apat. I just texted Mina nga last night, and i told her, sana mag-horror naman si Julia Roberts, para lang maiba. Jude Law, hmmm, okay din naman, pero i was able to watch Alfie first kase so parang similar lang yung roles. sana nagpalit na lang sila ng Clive ng role, para mejo different naman for Jude.

Great story! deals with man's basic instincts, love and lust! dialouges are smart and provoking! mejo for mature audience nga lang, hehehehe.

and btw, Damien Rice's Blower's Daughter couldn't have been more perfect for the movie. Great Song! Great Voice!

haaaay, lately, sunod-sunod ang mga movies na napapanuod kong maganda.

gabrielle

my inaanak, my pamangkin! love her sobra. haaaang cute. she's 9 months old na at wala pa ring buhok. malamang sa 1st birthday nya, bili ko sya wig(serious ako dito). sobrang kulet na. marunong ng magturo sa baba namen, eh ang bigat naman, buti sana kung pwede ng bumaba mag isa